Is ruin.

Is ruin. My thoughts are ruin, my visions are ruin, my way of living is ruin. Everything is ruin. They are destroyed by me. Leaving space for something far much greater. Believing for a bigger purpose in life. Knowing that there is something far more greater than i can ever imagine. Is there is there! But... it aint no easy reaching it. Obstacles , trials , tests are ahead of me. Shown in darkness. Before i can grab hold of what i was made for... i have to be mold, i have to be touched , i have to learn and grow. Knowing that there is no easy life. Is just the matter of fact, how do i deal with it, what is my response towards it. Do i react how the the world will react or will i stay still be patience, with love and care i deal with it? Of course i do prefer the second way, but is 100 times harder than the first one. Izzit worth going through this humble phrase of life? For the sake of my life after life? Is up to me now.