Oh, just movee.

Heart crying out loud praying that time would just rewind.

Oh come on, snap out of it! Move on.

No use mourning over an incident when you cannot do nothing about it.

Leave it and move on.
Correct it and move on.
Learn from it and move on.

Learn from your mistake,
Look forward,
Not repeating what has already happened.

Do not let emotions bring you down.
Knowing that there is always hope and light ; when there seems to be no light.
Knowing this has already been planned since.... the day when He thought of you.

Oh come on, you are made to face a greater challenge than this.
Molding and shaping aint no easy. Aint no simple. Aint no your way. :))

Oh yeah, not forgetting disappointment comes on the way. Well its ok.
Aware that There is always a someone out there facing a much greater challenge than i m now.

Trust.

is the trust i m looking for.
Up and down.
Left and Right.
Here and there.

But where exactly is it? Trust, where? Oh yeah, i lost it.

Wanna know whats going on?

1. Good is not good enough where better is expected. - Thomas Fuller
2. Is either i find a way or i make a way - Sir Philip Sidney
3. Is not what i do not know gets me in trouble ; its what i know for sure that does so. - Mark Twain
4.Life can only be understood backwards ; but it must be lived forward. - Soren Kierkegaard
5. Take care what you say before a wall, for you cannot tell who may be behind it. - Sadi
6.It isnt what you know that counts, its what you think of in time. - Anonymous.
7. An ounce of loyalty is worth a pound of cleverness. - Elbert Hubbard.
8. He who stops being better, stops being good - Oliver Cromwell
9.If going seems easy, you're going down hill. - anonymous.
10. Today is the tomorrow you didnt plan for yesterday - anonymous
11. No opportunity is lost l the other fella takes it - Anon

This are the things i need now. Things i need to learn. Oh wells. tas.

Me loveee,

Without them my life would be empty. :( But God knew that i needed them thats why He created my loves. Love all of you!!

(Chalotte, Joben , Amanda, myself)
Me love them

Me love Cheryl Soh :)

Ahh, me love Joben!

Me love Amanda Oooi.Me love all of them.ALL OF THEM.

Me love Joy and Philip too. :)) You rock.

Loving soo much more of you, is just that i do not have your photos. :(

Is ruin.

Is ruin. My thoughts are ruin, my visions are ruin, my way of living is ruin. Everything is ruin. They are destroyed by me. Leaving space for something far much greater. Believing for a bigger purpose in life. Knowing that there is something far more greater than i can ever imagine. Is there is there! But... it aint no easy reaching it. Obstacles , trials , tests are ahead of me. Shown in darkness. Before i can grab hold of what i was made for... i have to be mold, i have to be touched , i have to learn and grow. Knowing that there is no easy life. Is just the matter of fact, how do i deal with it, what is my response towards it. Do i react how the the world will react or will i stay still be patience, with love and care i deal with it? Of course i do prefer the second way, but is 100 times harder than the first one. Izzit worth going through this humble phrase of life? For the sake of my life after life? Is up to me now.

Pictures i love. (:

Waffle Word. :)

Kuantan:)

Loving this, babes.

Hahahaha! Memories!

Hahah! I was the failure. While amanda was the "seafood"

Mr Joe.

Loving you 2!

Wow, that was taken... 2 years back!

Yeah, yeah, call it whatever you want to. Love, amanda:D

Feeling the breeze.

Thumbsup!

Poser wanna be-s

:)

Nerds Attack!

Love you guys!

Thoughs, perhaps? hmm.

First half of my 2009 is gone. What have i contributed to this earth? What have i done through out this 6 months? This is not a very good way to start off cause this post might probably just end now as i cannot quite remember what changes i've made or done. But through out this 6 months, its been a roller coaster ride, definitely. Thoughts been hitting my head, running up and down, in and out. This year has been the most emotional year of my life, i would say. Putting doubt in everything i do. Not believing that purpose of it and why the heck m i doing it.

Supposedly, now is my nerding time but i choose to blog. Is a form of entertainment and reflecting. Back to the topic, having said that this year has been the most emotional year of my life, i actually grow from it. And having faith in whatever i do. Is amusing to know that we can never predict whats next cause things that you foresee might not happen, there, disappointment and discourage you. Having that, scary thoughts slowly creep into you, and you'll tend to believe it. In other word, paranoia. I realize, paranoia doubts loads. Its been happening to me, FREQUENTLY.

Sides being a paranoia. I too pretend. Ahhh, confession of an actress? Ha. I 've always tend to believe that i put on a mask in places where i m suppose to be transparent. Is tiring, is exhausting. That awful thoughts frequently bring me to this place of, breaking down. Hating that moment most but is a place i've been brought to, again i say frequently. But i tend to think this is me, and human beings are always led to that point to break down and giving up. I m still figuring out what m i and is it necessary for every christian to be at the point of breaking down, or is it just me? Sometimes not knowing the purpose of living is the toughest moment to go through. Wells, I think i should ask me Creator as an inventor doesnt create something without knowing the purpose of it. Having said that, i remember this sermon preached by someone, i couldnt remember who! ish. :/. In order for us to know what are our purposes, always go back to the creator or inventor. They do not create stuff without knowing the purpose but knowing the full purpose of it.

Thats about it for now. will continue when i feel like it. Here i come, Mr Siao. :)