peekaboo.

warning : if you do not want to be emo, i suggest you should close your tab now before the contagious emotional feelings creep into you.

However, i really dont know what to do at this period of time because everything around me seems so wrong. There are only 2 possibilities ; is either want my life to be perfect or i m just simply a whiny-lil-pessimistic old lady who is stuck in a 18 year old girl going through menopause. I feel soo miserable. Never in my life i feel so unconnected and unwanted. Like wth. :/ I m envious of every lady out there. I m envious of talented people. My silent prayer is that, i wish i could vanish from the phase of the earth right now.

Life is like a marathon, is such a long way to run. Consistency and perseverance is something i dont have, never had. My silent question to God : when is my race going to end?

p/s this is not a suicidal thought. is just a thought of " why m i feeling this way?" and things i wish i could do to not be in this position. peace.